The dark side of getting visible is the haters. The opinionated, unsolicited advice, wrapped in criticism. They will always have something to say about the face you’re making, how you sound weird on film, how you don’t look like that in real life, you look a little chubby on camera, it goes on and on. It might even surprise you who comes out of the woodwork to try and tear you down. Don’t let this phase you. This is just part of it. Part of having the courage to put yourself out there, and share your message with the world. The thing about haters that you need to know, is their opinion, and less than kind behavior, has nothing to do with you. When someones thoughts are distorted by fear, despair, and jealousy, nerves become overwrought. In that state, they can not think clearly, let alone make wise decisions, hence, throwing daggers your way in the form of verbal attacks. This reveals who they are, not who you are. It is an invitation bubbling to the surface for them to accept, if they choose to. An invitation from their soul to do a little inner work, and heal that part of themselves.
Hey y’all I recently did a 7 day journey in to my new album Keeper of Bees on Periscope. I spoke about the inspiration behind each song on the album, and I wanted to invite you over there to experience it, if you haven’t yet. If you are not familiar with Periscope, think Instagram only instead of pictures, it’s live video. All you have to do is download the app on your phone, and you can experience live music from your living room! Just click here so you can join the fun!
Louise Hay is about to turn 90. She did not grow up with a silver spoon in her mouth, not by any means. However, she was willing to take responsibility for the circumstances that were not working in her life, and shift them into the life that she desired. She was willing to do the work. Then pay it forward in the most beautiful way over the years. For everyone that has ever thought “I’m too old” she is great evidence that is hogwash, and simply a shitty belief you are fiercely holding onto. Each new decade Louise stamps by saying “This will be the best of my life” I’m with her.
Welcome friends, to “Keeper of Bees” CLICK HERE TO LISTEN
Recorded at Forge Recording Studio in Oreland, PA by Ron DiSilvestro. Mixed at 12th Street Sound in Austin, TX by Kevin Szymanski. Mastered at Yes Master Studios in Nashville, TN by Jim DeMain assisted by Amy Marie. Album design by Pixelbrand Creative Agency in Canada. CD manufactured at Atomic Disc in Salem, OR. Sachino Tsinadze on cello, and written and performed by yours truly. My beloved album is on it’s way, and will be ready in a few days for you. As you can see, it was touched by several amazing humans over several states. I feel very blessed to be able to make music for a living, and am so excited to introduce you to my latest album in a few short days…
A lovely little exercise that is written about in “The Dark Side of the Light Chasers” by Debbie Ford. Write down the name of a person who affects you at the top of a page. Draw a line down the center of the page. On the left hand side make a list of all the traits you like about this person. On the right hand side make a list of all the traits you dislike about this person. Once your list is complete, write before each item in the left hand column “I love myself when…” and write before each item in the right hand column “I don’t like myself when…” This is a simple way to recognize that what you see in another person is really about you.
I have been reading quite a bit lately, and just started “The Dark Side of the Light Chasers” by Debbie Ford. It grabbed me right away with this beautiful piece, and I wanted to leave it here for you to percolate with for awhile.
“All of your so-called faults, all the things which you don’t like about yourself are your greatest assets,” she said. “They are simply overamplified. The volume has been turned up a bit too much, that’s all. Just turn down the volume a little. Soon, you—and everyone else—will see your weaknesses as your strengths, your ‘negatives’ as your ‘positives.’ They will become wonderful tools, ready to work for you rather than against you.”
I had a great conversation on the topic of humility yesterday with some friends of mine. It was never really a word that was in my vocabulary on the regular. I assume this was due to the fact that I practically flew out of the womb with my arms akimbo, barking orders at someone. When I was 3ish I actually flung the screen door open and yelled at some kids to get off my property. I was just born with a whole lot of sass. My friend shared a reading she found that said “Humility is perfect quietness of heart. It is for me to have no trouble; never to be fretted or vexed or irritated or sore or disappointed. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me and when I am blamed or despised.” I thought this was so beautiful, I wanted to share it, so we could all take a moment to ponder just what a beautiful word it is, humility.
It’s a beautiful place to be in when you no longer have the burning desire to vilify the one who deeply hurt you. To simply hold them in a light of love and compassion, bless them, and remove yourself. Both physically, and mentally. For me this took some work. Some deep inner work. You see, I have the finger shaking, righteous, justice infused, need-to-prove-a-point chip implanted deep within me. That was no longer serving me, in fact, it was taking away from my best self. It feels much better to accept that it was not meant to be, and it is not possible to make it be. You can strategize, and project, and spend a lot of time and energy, but there is nothing romantic about what is unavailable. What is romantic, is the acceptance of reality, and the knowing that something better is on it’s way.
I love each and every process of making an album. I am currently in the last and final step for “Keeper of Bees” which is cover art design. I found a picture that I fell deeply in love with, now it’s a matter of fonts, depth, color, feeling etc. the story behind the title is bees representing those things we keep hidden, whether it be anger, fear, resentment, jealousy, addictions, you get the idea. I found the most beautiful representation of this with a vacant honeycomb. You see, at any point, you (and only you) have the ability to smoke out those bees when they no longer serve you. Can’t wait for you to see it!