I headed back to the studio today to make a few minor changes to the already punch-me-in-the-gut beautiful mix of my new album “Keeper of Bees.” As I was driving over there and listening to the songs in the car, I got an idea for my song “Leo.” The song is about two people needing to do their own inner work before possibly reconnecting in the future. That bittersweet moment of growing apart, having to say goodbye, and knowing it’s for the best. I thought, how cool would it be to layer a vocal at the end, as a round (think row row row your boat) to show that no matter where you are on your own journey, it can still be so beautiful all swirled together, and it was. Oh it was.
Archives for May 2016
“If we want to create art, we have to stitch together the inner world and the outer world.” -Robert Bly
It wasn’t until I began this process of stitching my inner and outer world that I truly began to understand my role as an artist. I didn’t know that such a deep dive in would have such a profound affect on my work. I was actually terrified to go in, because all I knew, was creating from the exact place I was currently in, from that point of awareness. Little did I know, that was just the beginning. Creativity expands with awareness of self. It craves the exploration and the deep dive. It loves to be free to roam. Trying to keep it in a box, afraid that if you step outside, it won’t come with you, is silly. It is what has been coaxing you out this whole time.
When I was 18 my dad and I came to Austin, TX for the first time. It was so I could sing at SXSW. I never really had a desire to visit Texas, little did I know that would start an epic love affair with this city. For years I had a pull to Austin, and didn’t honor it. I made all sorts of excuses around it “it’s not the right time” etc. I finally honored it 4 years ago. As soon as I landed in Austin, I started a kale chip company. New city, new adventure. For the next few years, I built something from scratch, having no idea about the food industry at all. I was damn proud. My chips were in high demand. I was miserable. The misery was an invitation for me, which I chose to accept. I chose to do some work around that misery. I went deeply and bravely IN to examine some beliefs that were no longer serving me. I got to know myself on a deeper level. One of the many gifts that revealed itself to me, was my true zone of genius. Which is, creating. Music, the best kale chip I’ve ever tasted, quick copy, I love creating. A large part of my misery was in trying to force myself to thrive in an arena that was not my zone of genius. So I stopped. I returned to myself. I started writing again. Last night, 7 songs that have patiently been waiting for me to release them were honored. I spent the day at 12th Street Sound witnessing Kevin work his magic, as he mixed my new album, that was originally captured at Forge Recording Studio by my friend Ron. I am so excited to release “Keeper of Bees” along with all the old beliefs that kept me from myself. Everything really is, in perfect time.
I wanted to share today about the importance of having a system and process in place to grab your ideas. Years ago, my ex, who happens to be an audio engineer, got me a little minidisc recording system for my song ideas. He noticed that when I would sit to write, I didn’t have anything to record these little snippets, I would only write down chords, and lyrics as they came. So a lot of the initial creation was lost as soon as I walked away from that session. After implementing the minidisc method, each new idea, verse, chorus, etc. is now captured for future reference. This also alleviates the pressure of each time I sit to write, feeling the need to come up with something epic. If it’s not a day where any new ideas are born, I simply scan through my minidisc magic, and begin my work crafting, adding, and creating around preexisting ideas. This process has completely transformed my work, and blasted the myth that artists are messy unorganized folks. Not this gal.