I had a great conversation on the topic of humility yesterday with some friends of mine. It was never really a word that was in my vocabulary on the regular. I assume this was due to the fact that I practically flew out of the womb with my arms akimbo, barking orders at someone. When I was 3ish I actually flung the screen door open and yelled at some kids to get off my property. I was just born with a whole lot of sass. My friend shared a reading she found that said “Humility is perfect quietness of heart. It is for me to have no trouble; never to be fretted or vexed or irritated or sore or disappointed. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me and when I am blamed or despised.” I thought this was so beautiful, I wanted to share it, so we could all take a moment to ponder just what a beautiful word it is, humility.
Archives for July 2016
It’s a beautiful place to be in when you no longer have the burning desire to vilify the one who deeply hurt you. To simply hold them in a light of love and compassion, bless them, and remove yourself. Both physically, and mentally. For me this took some work. Some deep inner work. You see, I have the finger shaking, righteous, justice infused, need-to-prove-a-point chip implanted deep within me. That was no longer serving me, in fact, it was taking away from my best self. It feels much better to accept that it was not meant to be, and it is not possible to make it be. You can strategize, and project, and spend a lot of time and energy, but there is nothing romantic about what is unavailable. What is romantic, is the acceptance of reality, and the knowing that something better is on it’s way.
I love each and every process of making an album. I am currently in the last and final step for “Keeper of Bees” which is cover art design. I found a picture that I fell deeply in love with, now it’s a matter of fonts, depth, color, feeling etc. the story behind the title is bees representing those things we keep hidden, whether it be anger, fear, resentment, jealousy, addictions, you get the idea. I found the most beautiful representation of this with a vacant honeycomb. You see, at any point, you (and only you) have the ability to smoke out those bees when they no longer serve you. Can’t wait for you to see it!
Who gets a head cold in July? This girl. Who now sees it as a wonderful gift from the Universe? This girl. You see, at times we are so focused on where we are going, achieving, striving, the whole nine yards. But something grazes your field of vision that the Universe really wants you to understand. So you get sick. Suddenly, you have all the time in the world to sit, and listen to the message that was trying to be delivered (for years in my case.) From the moment it sunk in, I started to heal, in more ways than one.
You know that feeling when you wake up in the morning, and as your brain wakes up, it grabs a thought? More often than not, it’s a thought that is attached to something that is currently going on in your life. A little over a month ago, I decided to make an adjustment in my morning ritual. Upon rising, I make myself a cup of coffee, open the blinds to see my beautiful plants, and immediately sit to write a full page of gratitude. I do this without looking at my phone, or opening my computer, which puts me in an immediate reactive state. When I begin slowly with gratitude, it raises my vibe and sets the tone for the day. I have noticed big shifts since i’ve implemented this practice. Fewer stressful thoughts, fewer thoughts that are out of my business. When you are centered in grace, and gratitude, you are much less likely to allow anything in that disturbs that beautiful ecosystem.