I used to have an insatiable need to know. I mean, it was bananas. I was vigilant about expending my energy to try and be three steps ahead of everyone in my life. Including, ruminating over each possible outcome to never be taken off guard. It was exhausting. One of the best things I’ve ever heard was “everything you need to know will reveal itself to you without any effort on your part.” that silenced me. It’s like I could finally exhale for the first time in my life. It is what allowed me to release the exhausting and ineffective behavior of needing to know. I now thrive in peace, surrounded by serenity, and allow life to unfold.
Intention over impulse. Wow. I have been listening to a lot of Brendon Burchard lately. This. This was huge for me. As I sat with this for awhile I realized I am a very impulsive person. Not that this is invariably bad. It’s what makes me able to create song ideas on a whim, quick copy, marketing ideas, honor friendships with impromptu activities etc. It’s just interesting to ponder each side of this. It also has the capability to steal a lot of my focus if I don’t keep it in awareness and honor it on a conscious level. It’s actually the reason this blog post came to be. I had a break in between appointments at work, and came to Starbucks to ponder this very thought.
Tim Ferriss said “being able to do anything you want all of the time is a recipe for disaster, paralysis and procrastination for the creative person.” I couldn’t agree more as a very creative person, ironically, who needs a lot of downtime to recharge. That doesn’t mean I need downtime 24/7 but it does mean I need a balance of both downtime, and productive time. This week I discovered The Productivity Planner. I had never heard of The Pomodoro Technique before, but it is something that I could immediately get onboard with. The Pomodoro is all about blocks of focused time. You set a timer for 25 minutes and begin, without interruption. Aside from making me hungry for an Italian feast, it has been essential to my daily routine. I invite you to click the link above to learn more about it if you wish.
For years, one of my soul contracts has referred to me as “the mechanic” because I am a fixer. For many moons we have been spiritual sandpaper for one another. Consistently grating on each others character defects, until finally we were brought front and center, into the heart of our own work. I used to be the kind of mechanic that would show up at your doorstep to fix your toilet, that I decided was broken. While I was in there, I would find many other things I decided needed fixing, so I would give you a list. As you can imagine, that was not a very successful way to do business. I am happy to report, that I no longer have to advertise my nifty mechanic skills. If someone needs me, they simply call to make an appointment, and I will stop by if I am available.
After a much needed pattern interrupt yesterday (I wandered around some of my favorite shops) after my tech meltdown, I woke up today filled with excitement to dive back in and learn. I think I am most excited for my willingness to learn a new skill. I dated an audio engineer for 10 years, and didn’t care AT ALL about the technical side of recording. I am now realizing that I was giving my power away. It was also a convenient excuse to hide in my turtle shell and reenforce my limiting belief that it’s too hard to make money with my music, too out of reach, too expensive, etc. I could hide because I needed someone/something outside of myself to get my music into the world. My perfectionism was garnished with the belief that I wasn’t smart enough. It feels SO amazing as you do work around limiting beliefs, and begin to extract them, they are really the gift that keeps on giving. The layers just reveal themselves through your daily inspired actions. I am so excited to learn my new skills of GarageBand, and iMovie, I have no doubt that these tools will set my creativity on FIRE.
I am teaching myself Garageband. From scratch. It’s no small feat. As an artist, who has even dated an audio engineer (currently regretting not paying much attention to his Zone of Genius) I was never much into the technical side of things. Until now. I decided, where technology currently is, I am hindering myself to not learn the basics. Though I currently feel like my creativity is locked in a cage screaming for technical ability to set it free, I am just taking it one step at a time. In the past I would have bailed by now, it’s pretty complicated. However, if I can learn to speak, to walk, to drive, to sing live while dancers are dancing, I can learn Garageband.
Today when choosing from my lovely new “I am” deck by Mystic Moon Tarot, I chose “I am solar plexus” I had to look up what this meant, and found the most beautiful meaning. The third chakra is the center of willpower. While the sacral chakra seeks pleasure and enjoyment, the third chakra is all about the perception of who you are. The third chakra is the center of your self-esteem, your willpower, self-discipline, as well as warmth in your personality. The energy of this chakra allows you to transform inertia into action and movement. It allows you to meet challenges and move forward in your life.
As a recovering people pleaser, I never really realized how unattractive it was until I did some healing around it. As I healed and up leveled my own behavior, I became witness to this behavior in others. I think what I find most unattractive is the loss of authenticity, along with the subtle manipulation that is usually present. It’s a very distorted view of reality, and it’s being driven by unprocessed emotions. The more time and energy you expend with attempts to control or ‘figure out’ what anyone or anything outside of yourself is thinking, the more time is wasted from your magical self. Remember her? Remember what she loves to do? Remember what she wants to be? If you don’t, I suggest you spend some time with her. Alone.
I used to believe that in order to have great success you had to struggle. A lot, for awhile. I’m happy to report that this is simply untrue. It’s just something that my mind created, and I liked to seek evidence to support. I now choose to seek evidence to support just the opposite. Successful humans, that have a lot of personal freedom, very little struggle, hefty bank accounts, and lives filled with joy. My advice to you today is; ditch the bullshit. Stop feeding it by harping on it, complaining about it, and reinforcing it. There is freedom on the other side.
If you’re anything like me, you are pretty evenly split between left and right brain. This can be challenging at times as an overly analytical songstress. I recently received the most beautiful Sacred Creator Oracle deck from Chris-Ann Donnelly (who is my design hero, and also designed my album “Keeper of Bees”) this is a powerful deck for many reasons, but one very special one for me. It speaks deeply to my inner artist, and keeps my analytical monkey brain in check. I know when I feel out of balance, I can pull a card that completely shifts me back on the road to where I wish to be…
“Sometimes we don’t feed our artist because we see it as a non-productive pursuit. Allow your artist to play with no judgement + no expectation except to enjoy!” -Sacred Creators Oracle